So yesterday I got really lightheaded and super dizzy when I woke up. I had no idea what was happening. I just woke up feeling like this and it was super scary.

I went to the bathroom and went to get up and all I could see was the wall coming at me at an angle. It was the freakiest thing I had experienced. It was like watching a movie where the camera falls against something and then lands on the ground. Luckily I was able to grab on to the towel rack for dear life before my head ended up on the ground. So I grabbed for it, held on and slid my way down the wall and yelled for help from Babes.

Luckily I had finished my business but wasn’t able to wash my hands and she needed to help me get up. So I said grab the hand sanitizer before grabbing my hand, she said, “I’ll wash my hands after we get you off the floor.” 

That is true love.

So she helped me sit up and I crawled my way out of the bathroom floor and sat against the wall. I sat like that for a hour before trying to move to another room. She walked my unsteady self to the living room and then she got me water. I thought I was extremely dehydrated so we were doing all the things to hydrate and get me feeling better. I ate a ramen, I took a shower and then we went to the store to get some more supplies. Again, thinking I needed electrolyte drinks, bananas, oranges and more soup. I came home and took a nap. 

Woke up feeling like it reset all over again and hard.

It was now 4:30pm and I was afraid to go through the night like this. I called my family members and asked if they think I should go to Urgent Care. It was a consensus: yes. Get checked out and update them after we know what is wrong with me.

After a few hours at urgent care I was seen and it is official: I have Vertigo. Nothing to do but ride it out. That could be two days or seven. 

Well being that this was the 3rd day in the new year, I’m like: “Hey Universe I have a lot of things to do and I this is not helping.” 

So here I am riding it out with thousands of things I want to do. I’ve got big goals for 2024 but right now the Universe is telling me to slow down. I’m not a fan of this concept. Me—slow down!! What is this thing you speak of?

To put things into perspective now my goals are not to fall on my face or fall and hurt myself. I feel like an adult trapped in a toddler’s wobbly body. 

I am at about 80% functional but still really woozy and somewhat sick to my stomach. But dammit I am trying and I am going to get through this.

I feel like a Vertigo  Warrior battling just to stand on steady legs and hope not to fall again.

Here’s to finding strength and digging deep to get through the simple things.